The moon is a waxing gibbous until it becomes full today at 5:26 p.m. EST. The full moon will be in Cancer. There is a void moon at 11:45 p.m., and Mars is retrograde.
This weekend got away from me, and I wasn’t able to post. We lost power Friday night and got it back late Saturday afternoon. Then, I had a bunch of chores to do on both Saturday and Sunday. Lastly, I managed to cause some drama in my family, which meant I had to spend time focused on my sister.
I woke up this morning feeling like I fucked up everyone’s life and caused a serious rift between my two sisters. I only tried to get them to talk to each other about how they’re feeling about one taking care of the other. I felt like I should’ve kept my dumb mouth shut.
Last night, I dreamed I had to attend five weddings in one day. It was very stressful for me, and I woke up feeling rushed and pressured.
Today’s Card Pull
Judgement is the twentieth card in the major arcana, typically representing renewal, resurrection, rebirth, and resolution. The card depicts the Archangel Gabriel blowing his trumpet to call us home. It shows people rising from their graves to the heavens to be reborn.
This card represents answering the call, resolving inner conflict, and letting go of the past. It advises that one should allow for growth, transformation, and the release of hidden potential in order to become the highest form of self. It means redemption, reuniting the whole self into higher consciousness, and awakening new possibilities if only we can let go of the past.
What Does It All Mean?
Wow. Just… Wow.
Okay, so not only did I have a conflict last night caused by my inner nature, but also, this morning, I told a friend that I’m curious about a potential relationship. They had previously indicated a crush a couple of times, and I had been cautious because of things in our individual pasts that might cause future conflict. It looks like trusting my instincts will pay off.
So, on Sunday, I played Little Miss Fix-It with my sisters, causing them to get upset with each other and exacerbating the situation. Well, then (almost) everyone apologized and went back to normal. I think the Judgement card calls for me to forgive myself for yesterday’s transgressions, as I was only acting as myself and doing what I thought was best.
Secondly, this whole new relationship possibility – to make a very long story very short, I have struggled with alcohol both internally and externally. I was in an abusive relationship with a severe alcoholic, and lately, I’ve been self-medicating with booze. My whole family struggles with alcohol as well – dad, sisters, cousins, aunts, all of them. It’s the Irish failing, I suppose. Anyway, to welcome a chance for a new relationship with someone else who’s a recovering alcoholic – well, let’s just say I was afraid of a Leaving Las Vegas moment. But today, after pulling this card, I am learning to let go of the past and let in a bright future for both of us.
Lastly, I got a call from my talent account manager, who got me my current job. She said that everyone at her agency and my VP of Sales all sing my praises and tell her I’m doing a fantastic job. I am also working with my web designer on getting our new site up and my roommate on getting a newsletter mockup. If I can get them to work in tandem, we can have beautiful assets that truly represent us. I feel like this is an awakening for my company that good talent is without and within equally.
Today is a day of renewal. I welcome it with hope in my heart.
The Satyr Witch 